Thursday, November 6, 2008

Ah, Success.

This morning was my second crack at taking my roadtest. I went to the site early to practice driving around the area, knowing so well how much I didn't want to fail, again :P. My efforts paid off, and despite jittery nerves, I passed my test. Since it was early in the day, after quickly stopping back home, I drove MYSELF to school. It felt pretty cool :). I'd have to say one of the nicest parts is being able to listen to my music, and sing along, obnoxiously. The rest of my day at school was alright, nice and short. Then I drove Tom and myself home and began chores. I took him home after too, which was a little more nerve wracking, because it was dark out, and raining. I didn't make any mistakes though :P, and we all made it home in one piece.

I think I'm going to be risky and actually talk about a general topic today, instead of being all about me, hahah. Shocking? Quite. Independence is something I think we all crave, and if you don't now, you will sooner or later. It's that feeling that the world's just tugging at your hand, begging you to join in on the fun. You want to have new experiences, see new things, and most of all, do it yourself. Our parents have done so much for us, but there comes a point where you want to do things for yourself, and be out on your own. Free to decide things on a whim, discover new things about the world, and about yourself. I think this whole process really escalates when you're given the freedom to drive. Now you can go places and do things as you please, giving you a little more leash to deal with. College, I think, will be amazing. Of course I'll miss people, including my parents, but the new independence will most likely knock the wind right out of me. Living on your own, making rules for yourself, it just seems phenomonal. Not right now, of course. I've still got growing up to do, but when the time comes, it'll be a bittersweet relief. Moments are flying before my eyes, and I'm starting to realize how short this life actually is as your grow older. Remember being five? Christmas vacation felt like a lifetime. How about now? Not so much. I can recall one moment when I was twelve, ending sixth grade. I thought about how I was halfway through school and four years away from driving, but I thought it was forever away. Now I realize I'm graduating next year, living on my own, and I just got my license today. Time's a crazy, twisted thing. I sound kind of contridictary :P. But what I'm trying to say is, live it up, enjoy the present. At the same time though, realize how many awesome things are headed your way. Just don't let yourself get stuck in just one of them, including the past. Some people are just so overwhelmed in the past, and how great things were then, that they lose their ability to enjoy the present, while others are so content with the present, they don't prepare for the future. Balance is key.

6 comments:

Wandering Child said...

I can't wait to get out of high school and move a million miles away. The only memory I like of here is the snow, and let's face it, I can get that in a majority of the states.

Natalie! said...

Congratulations on passing your test! Ahh, I can't wait until that feeling of freedom when I'll finally be able to drive myself everywhere.

The thought is scary, though. It's even closer for you than for me, graduating and going off on your own and all that. If I look back 4 years I was in fifth grade, and that seems so long ago yet not long ago at all, but in that amount of time I'll be graduating. I think it is definitely important to keep your thoughts balanced in the past, present, and future.

Nicole Linette said...

YAY YOURE DRIVING NOWWW! Haha, so legit =] I'm getting my permit on Monday since I'm off from school. Good for you though!

Ahh, soveriegnty in the minds of teenagers. It's a love/hate sort of thing I believe. I'm still working on that balance ... I can barely remember what happened last week (my short-term is pretty lamee) ! I hope the memories don't slip though.

peace&love
nicole.

Taylor-Tot said...

nice post :) its so true, and i'm glad you passed ur drivers test :) i havent talked to you in forever, or it seems like it anyway, so how are you?

Ali loves Keyshia Cole! said...

Hey---I just wanted to say I LOVE your blog!!! I found it through Taylor-Tot's(in case you were wondering.) Ok, I'm an idiot, I didn't know your name was your real name spelled backwards until a few days ago. Don't laugh I was just having a blonde moment. HAHA. Well cool blog and congrats on passing your test!! :D

Taylor-Tot said...

lol, things with me... i'm ok, i could be better as well, but i'm hangin in there, just goin through a little bit of rough times