Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Snow day

I'm actually kind of pissed off, haha.
This is the first snowday I've been angry over, simply because we took the first part of our regents yesterday. I felt like I did a good job on the the whole thing. The multiple choice was a sinch, and I think my essays were worthy of sixes. But guess what....
they no longer count!
>:[! According to the wonderful state of New York, both parts of the regents must be taken in the same timeframe. So since we couldn't take part two today on account of school being closed, we have to take the ENTIRE test again in June. I'm outraged. So not only did everyone besides our grade receive a nice half day yesterday, while we stayed for testing, but now those tests are garbage. There's nothing I can do about it, but wow, I'm mad, haha.

I think I'll take today to catch myself up with things. I keep forgetting about this letter I have to send out to parents and students about collecting bottles and cans. Prom is coming up in not too long, and we're broke. We're bascially starting from scratch, it's sad. Most of the weeks available to funraise are taken up by other classes too. Like seventh and eighth graders who don't NEED the money, while we're nearing our Junior Prom with empty pockets. I'm the treasurer of the class, so essentially this falls down on me a bit. I'm trying to think up ways to make money, but it's difficult, I could use some input from you guys :).

A couple groups of guys at school have started up bands, Dilluted and Zero Climax, so my only idea so far has been to host a small concert type deal, featuring these guys. That way alot of kids from school would want to go see their friends/classmates put on a show, and it'd get more publicity for them, because they're both good bands made up of awesome guys. I'm thinking if we make money like this outside of school, we can "donate" it to our class, and work around not having fundraising weeks available. Other than that, I guess we're hosting a Valentines Day Dance, going to attempt a Junior Auction, and our only available, real fundraiser is Yankee Candle, in March. Hopefully that along with bottles/cans will make us some money, but our school is small, so it's hard to accumulate any decent amount of revenue from things. IDEAS??!!! :)

I think the majority of today I will spend cleaning, with my nose in my book, and finishing up things I've neglected. I've made some changes to the blog, hope you like 'em. All of the pictures are either taken by/of me, except for like two, haha. Which are the artsy ones, like the book heart and the hand with writing. I'm not so clever with my camera yet. But the rest are mine. Have a good one & enjoy your snowday if you got one!

♥ Olive :)

Monday, January 26, 2009

s0 fab ;)

This fabulous award has a few requisites:
1. Put the logo on your blog or post.
2. Nominate at least 10 blogs which you think are fabulous.
3. Be sure to link to your nominees within your post.
4. Let them know that they have received this award by commenting on their blog.
5. Share the love and link to this post and to the person from whom you received your award.

Firstly, I want to thank Nicole for the Fabulous Blogger Award she gave me :). When I began blogging I kind of assumed noone would read anything I had to say, I just thought it'd be a way to put my thoughts down, without using my horrendous handwriting. But come to my surprise, intelligent, fantastic people actually stay up to date with my ramblings! Awesome :D. So thanks Nicole, and now I'll follow the rules and award some fellow bloggers myself. I don't have that many people I keep up with, haha. So I'm narrowing my awards down to five, it's supposed to be 10 :P.

Aren - I believe she was the first to comment me, and she has such deep and profound things to say, check out her blog and be amazed.
Natalie - I love reading about her adventures and all of the crazy shananagins her and her friends get into :P. She's such a nice, fun blogger.
Wandering Child - She's got a great blog, make sure especially to check out her facfict of Sweeny Todd, she tells the story well, from Mrs.Lovette's view.
Amanda - Hah, she never blogs. But she's my best friend, so obviously I'm going to mention her :D. She's the greatest, I couldn't imagine having anyone else as my best friend.
Nicole - Hah, I realize she already has one, and gave me mine. But whatever, she deserves it :). She has so much ambition, and alot of interestingLink things to say. Not to mention how stylish she is, check her out on deko&posh.

Anywaysss... :)

Today was pretty nice. Amanda slept over last night and we spent our time watching the food network, and laughing over the various wacky things we find amusing. The next day after grabbing some breakfast we headed out in my car to cruise around. I consigned some old dresses and pants to this thrift shop, Forgotten Treasures. I hope I make a little money :D. I'm not expecting much though. Then we shuffled on to the library. I just got a card yesterday, so I didn't need anything, I'm going to read Dead Connection, I'll let you know how it is. Afterwards we drove around and got a few groceries and lunch at, you guessed it, PANERA'S. :). I swear, that place is my favorite destination for food nowadays.
So then we didn't feel like heading home quite yet, so we drove to this tourist town nearby, that is basically a ghosttown once winter strikes :P. We checked out this hippie store and headed to the outlets. It was a nice time, I love going places with her.

I'd make a more involved post of wordly importance, but I don't feel like it. Hahah, sorry. I'm putting this blog award to shame aren't I? I have an english regents tomorrow though, and I'd like to cram some review time in before [H]ouse comes on tonight, so I've got to keep this short & sweet. Thanks for reading, have an excellent week people :).

Thursday, January 22, 2009

When the air that we breathe
becomes air that we choke. When
the marsh fever spreads from the
swamps to our homes.
When your home on the range has been torn down
and paved, When the buffalo roam to a slaugherhouse grave.
What more will it take for us to know, this is not a test. Oh no,
this is cardiac arrest. Of a world too proud to admit our mistakes.
Kissing the ground, as we all fall from grace.
Collapse- Rise Against, Appeal to Reason album.

Seeing how my last post was nearly a week ago, I figured it's about time I write another halfway thought-provoking post. Plus I haven't been doing anything particularly interesting with my life :P. So.. Anyways.

I feel like we have the power to make a change. Our world today just seems so fueled by self interest and money, the two usually intertwining. We're slowly destroying the world we live in, day after day. We're ruining it physically with scrounging it for more natural resources than we actually need, polluting without valid reason. I'm not innocent, I know that. I drive a car driven on gas, because guess what-- I can't afford a hybrid :P. I like to doze off in a nicely heated bedroom in the wintertime. I'm certainly no self sacrificer, but I atleast realize we have an issue at hand. If everyone just cuts back a little, that will at the least buy us some time to fix the mess we're making. I think green energy is a great idea. I just lack the knowledge on it currently, and I need to do more little things to improve on my own. Noone should be expected to just plunge into saving the world, all out. But small things done by just about everyone adds up pretty fast. So, just turn off those lights/heat when you're not using 'em, and try to be a little more enviormentally friendly. I'll begin to do my part as well.

No, I'm not one :P. I just feel like raising the question-- how do you people feel about it? Personally, I think it's a fantastic idea. It's healthy, and spares lives of the animals, but I personally don't know if I could do it, enjoyably. I'm not some huge carnivorious fiend, but I am the kind of girl who likes a variety. Choices are important to me. I have no problem with eating meatless entrees, I like trying new things. I was reading a post my friend Steve wrote about why he became a vegetarian, and it raised a lot of good points. My question is, if the majority of the population switched their diet to plants, what would we do with the excess animals? Obviously livestock die of natural causes too, but so many go for slaughter, so what would become of those animals? I don't think we have enough land for them to graze along with our population growing as well. I dislike animal cruelty, but I don't know. I don't really think a full on vegetarian is the diet for me. Maybe I'll just be primarily vegetarian, I already don't eat meats very consistently. I just don't want to necessarily limit myself to one choice.

I said earlier that our demise, physically is starting to show effect, but I think we have a possibly bigger issue-- society. To start with, I'm estatic that Obama won the election and was inaugerrated into office :). I find it kind of sad in a way though, that having our "first black president" is such a big deal. The whole color thing in theory, shouldn't matter. Hopefully his term will go well, and as a nation, we'll improve. It just seems like so many people just-- don't care. People just do what they want, regardless of the effect it'll have. So many people don't seem to have bigger issues on their mind than their latest breakup or their new handbag. Plus I can't stand how much people like professional athletes and poparatzi whores make so much money, while people who do intelligent, beneficial tasks make nil in comparison. I like entertainment as much as the next person, but it's a bit rediculous. Just take a look at the television. Alot of people are so easily amused by low budget reality shows. I can't believe an imaginative show like Pushing Daisies was booted off of the air. I'm all for enjoying life, and living it up to it's full potential. But we have a duty, to keep this playground of ours useful for the future that's upon us. Other people are going to inherit the earth after us, we might as well keep it usable. I just wish we lived in a happier, more intelligent, productive time. I think however, our generation's going to be the one to do something. If we take the initiative, we can.

Let's start a revolution.
oh yeah, the beatles are definitely thumping in my head now :).

For youuuu, Nicole :). If this is what you meant. If not, correct me.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Sick, Sick, Sick.
Don't Resist.
You guessed it, I'm feeling a bit under the weather. Actually, it's only my stomach. But this morning and throughout the day was the most gut-wrenching pain I've had in awhile. It literally felt like someone with biceps like Chuck Norris decided it would be cool to suckerpunch me in the gut. Needless to say, I'm not at school. Once I vomited my reesees puffs, that was it. I can tolerate it if I'm sitting still, as I am now, but I don't think I could've handled school. Camping out in the bathroom sitting on a stack of folded bath towels isn't accepted there, so I felt much more comfortable in the privacy of my own home. I might get wise and use this time to work on my chemistry write-ups. Our last match for Answers Please was last night. We didn't go down in glory, in fact a nice way to put it was--we were massacred. Creamed. Brutalized. "P'owned." It wasn't pretty. We shook it off though, it was a fun season with an interesting group of people sharing some interesting memories :). Afterwards we went out to eat at Panera's, and the manager was thoughtful enough to give us a consolation gift--- a platter of those brownie/pie slices! Basically it's a frosted, delicious brownie, cut up much like a pizza or a pie. We were quite pleased.

Well we sat on the edge of the river, the crowd screamed "Sacrifice the liver!"
If God takes life, he's an Indian giver. So tell me now why you'll tell me never.
Who would wanna be? Who would wanna be such a control freak? Well who
would wanna be? Who would wanna be such a control freak?

Well see what you wanna see. You should see it all.Well take what you want from me.
You deserve it all. Nine times out of ten, our hearts just get dissolved.Well I want a better
place or just a better way to fall.But one time out of ten, everything is perfect for us all.
Well I want a better place or just a better way to fall.

Here we go!
If God controls the land and disease, and keeps a watchful eye on me, if he's really so damn mighty,
well my problem is that I can't see, well who'd wanna be? Who'd wanna be such a control freak?
Well who would wanna be? Who would wanna be such a control freak?

Evil home stereo, what good songs do you know?Evil me, oh yeah I know, what good curves can you throw?
Well all that icing and all that cake, I can't make it to your wedding, but I'm sure I'm gonna be at your wake.
You were talk, talk, talk, talkin' in circles that day, when you get to the point make sure that I'm still awake, Okay?

-Bukowski - Modest Mouse

I'm going to get a little controversial here.. So if you're a religion fanatic, not interested, or whatever, just stop reading. Or don't comment on it. I don't mind an intelligent argument, but I don't want to feel like I've greatly offended anyone for what they believe, so this is the disclaimer my friend. :)

Religion just seems like such a problematic thing to me. So many of our wars throughout history were simply based on controversies over beliefs. I'll say one good thing about religion, it gives hope. Having faith in something or someone to take care of you would be a pleasant feeling, a good support system. I just can't bring myself to believe. I spent alot of my Sundays as a child going to church, believing what I was told. But once I grew old enough to actually form my own opinions, it stopped making sense to me, in the same manner we deal with Santa Clause. It's nice in theory but lacks the facts to back it up. I know, I know. The whole point of having faith is not needing these facts. But I don't have faith in a god. I have faith in myself. I have faith in my friends, my family. I don't see why some being, "God", would put us on this earth with the sole purpose of worshipping him. As the song I quoted said, "Who would want to be such a control freak?" It just seems incredibly egotistical to me, to want lower beings just to praise you. I feel like so many people are devoted to a religion in self interest, their fear of the afterlife. People are scared of what happens next. I don't pretend to know what'll happen. Maybe we simply rot in the earth, or maybe there is a God. Or maybe, some crazy process goes on that scientists haven't even begun to examine. Regardless, I'm not going to waste my life preparing for the latter. I'll live it now, the way I want. Just because I'm not a child of god doesn't mean I'm not a decent person. Religion and kindness do not always tie in. I've seen plenty of "good christians" who are judgemental, rude, and downright mean when they want to be. Religion gives them the capability to do wrong, and then "ask forgiveness", and the doors are back open again. Morality shouldn't go hand in hand with a fear of torture. People get motivated in hopes of reaching "heaven", and avoiding "hell". I perceive this as self-interest, sorry. I do appreciate people, including religious ones, who do things for the good of humanity. I've just experienced people who feel 'nonbelievers' as people to avoid. How can you base your association, or lack of, with someone on their beliefs?! I don't understand. Does their difference make them insuperior? Even though I'm agnostic, I'll still associate with people who have beliefs, because that's all it is to me. A belief, an opinion. Something everyone is entitled to grasp. I just dislike how it has such a prominent space in society, and always has. None of us know what happens when our hearts stop beating, our lungs quit expanding. It's a mystery. I don't see how anyone can pretend to be so certain of what will become of us.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

I think everyone's been hit by the backlash of this week.
Once vacation's over, it's so hard to get back into the routine of things :P. I wish we had more time off, that's for sure. The main reason I haven't been updating is because I haven't had the time. The only nights I spent by myself this week were Monday and late Friday, haha. I feel rude going online for long periods of time when people are over, since I don't have a nifty little notebook. Me going online requires a trip down the stairs and sitting behind a slow desktop. I want a laptop so bad, I think I'm going to ask for one for my birthday in June. Plus my time has been overtaken with schoolwork. Chemistry's getting worse for me, and I had to work on a U.S. History collage of the Bill of Rights this week. That certainly kept me busy.

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Pushing Daisies.
I'm not sure who all else, if any of you have seen this show, but it's phenomonal. I haven't seen any of the second season because I'm still working on the first, but it's really well done. Very whimsical and unique. I heard it's getting cancelled though :(, that's upsetting. I reccomend renting/buying the season though, it's great. Basically, this guy Ned finds out as a child that he can touch dead things and bring them back to life for 1 minute. However, if he doesn't touch them again to make them dead, then something else dies in it's place. And he can't touch the being again or else it goes back to being dead. The girl next to him is Chuck, his former childhood sweetheart, and he brought her to life and can't touch her again. They kiss through saran wrap, it's cute :).

I kind of don't have much to talk about, no major highlights of the week. I mean it's been enjoyable, but chill. One thing this week did make me pretty pissed though. We're playing floor hockey now in gym class, and this girl Victoria, your basic gym-class-warrior, picked me and some other girls for her team. She was nice enough not to separate me, Amanda, and Julie, and we ended up a group of six or seven girls. Our class is co-ed, so of course there were boys on the other team. Well, my oh so nice gym coach came over and literally asked Victoria if this was a joke. He gave her the weirdest look for choosing us, and said something like "Well I hope your all-star team is ready cause you're up against (points to a team with mainly guys)." My friends and I weren't too worried, it's only gym class. I honestly don't care very much about winning a game of floor hockey, I despise sports. But Victoria was all upset for disappointing coach, and wanted to "prove herself", so I put forth effort to be nice to her. I just find it incredibly rediculous that my coach, a male, can be so sexist. This nice guy Jeremiah volunteered to switch to our team, and coach said "No, she picked an all star team, let her live with her mistake" Holy shit, I just want to punch him in the face. Since when was gym class serious? Then he tried to seem all pitious for us, and gave us a "head start" out to the floor. That just really angers me. And the funny thing is, we actually aren't a bad team anyways! We tied our little game with a mainly boys team, I don't see where we're a joke. What are your guys' thoughts on this? I was thinking about saying something about this, but I don't know. It's a small school, and I'm sure this teacher has 10year. His opinion isn't really that significant to me, I don't understand why Victoria cares so much. I just wanted to point out that sexism is still prevelant, and it's awful.

Sunday, January 4, 2009


Strange, isn't it? I'm graduating in one year, time's just zipping on past me. I know I've been slacking in the blogging department :P, I've just had alot of things going on. Mainly I've been squeezing as much fun as humanly possible out of vacation with my two accomplices ;). I'm speaking of Amanda and Julie of course. We haven't spent 24 hours completely apart all week, haha. It's been nice though. The three of us along with Julie's older brother Greg, spent New Years in Albany at their sister's house :). It was a pretty nice time. We had the whole multi-story apartment to ourselves since the other two people living with her were away with family. It was a good time, I wish I took some pictures to share :(.

On the downside of everything, I've been thinking alot love-wise. Last year around this time, the second of January to be precise, Tom asked me out. So now, feeling alone just sucks. I've been thinking alot through, and I just want to be able to talk to him and see where he stands. I'm just frustrated :/. Anywayssss. I cannot stand how today is the last of vacation. I'm so not ready to go back. I still have chemistry left to do, a project to begin, and math to work on. Snikeysss. That's what happens when you spend your vacation having fun :P. Sheesh.

Look what I got... :D....

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^^ This is Frederick :):). Amanda got me him for Christmas, haha. He's so chill.

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And these, are my skullcandies from Amanda and Julie :). Oh wow, how spectacular they make my music sound :D. I love it.

Since this is the New Year now, I should probably keep the tradition halfway alive and write up some resolutions and changes for 2009. Yes, I was a slacker and ignored this on the real New Years, but hey, I can make late resolutions. :)

[FIRST] I will write more. In my journal, story-wise, and on blogspot. I'll make a point to make creative writing a bigger part of my life now, to prepare me for my hopes for the future. I can't be an author if I don't write well. I could definitely use some improvement, especially seeing the way you other bloggers write :P.
[SECOND] I will speak up more and give myself a better backbone. I've always struggled with being a pushover, and I've been gradually improving, but I still have a ways to go. I just like seeing people happy, but I realize it's not worth always sacrificing the happiness of myself. Especially if whatever I'm doing is not appreciated.
[THIRD] I will improve my intelligence. I do well in school, but I don't always absorb the information. I need to spend more time learning new things, outside of school more so, making myself a smarter person. College won't take me if I'm dumb :P.
[FOURTH] I will try to lead a better balanced, happy life. That means less procrastination, more ambition, and I don't know. This one's hard to explain, haha. I just want to make the most of my life basically. I'm happy with what I have, but I know I could make always better myself and things. I want to see more places, experience new, exciting things. I want to feel more fulfilled I suppose.

♥ OLIVE :)